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HELLO WORLD! As you can see, it has been a long time since I blogged. So I would like to apologize to my readers for not updating. You see I have been continuing “"My Journey Through therapy" , doing a lot of soul searching, purging myself of toxic relationships, and working on my relationship with God. (Without God I am nothing)
Soul searching has been the hardest thing I have ever had to do because it requires me to actually take a hard long look at my soul and admit shortcomings, deal with the demons of my past, and in the process eliminate those cycles of life that I have been dealing with over and over again without any results. This past couple of months felt like I have been going through the fiery furnace. I set some goals for myself and I am surely accomplishing those goals.
Learning and growing is a lifelong process and we must seek out knowledge. Learning about me has been terrifying. I lost count of how many crying days and nights I have had. It has been times when I cried everyday for week at a time because I learned something new about myself, and the dynamics surrounding either my past or my present situations. I have let go of people I thought I loved so deeply that it hurt me at the time to be without them. I let go because of the toxicity and drama they brought to my life masquerading as love and understanding. I finally realize that I cannot expect ANYONE TO SEE ME FOR WHO I AM IF I DO NOT SEE MYSELF THE WAY GOD SEE ME!!!!
The best part of this journey is learning to finally accept who God created me to be instead of masquerading in mediocrity AND ALLOWING OTHER TO DICTATE FOR ME HOW I SHOULD BEHAVE, HOW I SHOULD FEEL, AND HOW I SHOULD SEE MYSELF!
I am going to keep this post short, but trust me I have plenty to say so expect to see regular updates!
PEACE LOVE AND HAIR GREASE!! #ROCKSTEADY!!!
